Waiting for the 3:20 bell...

As I sit on my classroom first period, anxiously awaiting the bell at 3:30, my thoughts are on Thanksgiving Break. I think about years back when I was into hard core training and how the wonderful food on Thanksgiving Day didn't even tempt me to eat until I was stuffed. Then I think about how I feel now....wave a cookie in front of my face at 8AM and I am on it! I can only imagine how I am going to be drooling all moring as I smell everything cooking! What the heck has changed? How have I lost such self-control? How did I even have it in the first place?? But it's not really about self-control or willpower or any of that other crap people talk about. It comes down to how we feel about ourselves...our SELF WORTH. Being healthy is more than just counting calories and exercising. How does a person find that self worth when they haven't had it for so long?? Crazy thing is that exercise and eating well will help that self worth increase!! I know myself that I just get SICK and TIRED of being sick and tired....and then I decide to change...and change is hard at that point.